Nothing To See Here, Move Along.

"The sweetest of all sounds is that of the voice of the woman we love."

- Jean de la Bruyere

"Even though times may be hard, the days a struggle, the nights full of sorrow, and I’ve found myself all alone and barely alive, three words echo through my mind. ‘Never Give Up.’"

- Brandoncho Esplana

Bridge Over Troubled Waters

When you’re weary, feeling small,
When tears are in your eyes, I will dry them all;
I’m on your side. when times get rough
And friends just cant be found,
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.

When you’re down and out,
When you’re on the street,
When evening falls so hard
I will comfort you.
Ill take your part.
When darkness comes
And pains is all around,
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.

Sail on silver girl,
Sail on by.
Your time has come to shine.
All your dreams are on their way.
See how they shine.
If you need a friend
Im sailing right behind.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will ease your mind.

Taken from my notebook: “Ignorance and Love”

Looking around

She isn’t to be found

Is there something wrong with me

She’s pushing me out into open sea

Pain and despair

A sentence I say with too much care

She’s still everything in my eyes

Yet it seems my mind is filled with lies

Sitting right in front of me

Should I tell her my painful plea?

Even if I recite aloud

She will still stay safe on her cloud

Her happiness and security

My heart trying to find it’s purity

“Forgive me I’m trying to find my calling at night”

I won’t give up on you, I WILL fight

I love you too much, to see you walk away

It would mean death to me, because you make me want to say

All my feelings towards you

Would you even have a clue?

I said I’d never forget your face
Vaulted away inside my head
And memories never seem to fade
You were the best part of my life, my last regret

Now I’ve walked this line a thousand times before
It hurts too much to bear
For you, I’d tear out my own heart
And write our names together

Your love is the barrel of a gun
So tell me, am I on the right end?
I could be nothing but a memory to you
Don’t let this memory fade away

And in the end, we’re turning on and off again
There’s a look in your eye
And it’s screaming “goodbye”
I’d hate to watch you cry

Your love is the barrel of a gun
So tell me, am I on the right end?
I could be nothing but a memory to you
Don’t let this memory fade away

There’s a look in your eye
And it’s screaming “goodbye”
Now it tears me apart just to look at the sky
And I’d hate to watch you cry
I’d hate to watch you cry

Your love is the barrel of a gun
So tell me, am I on the right end?
I could be nothing but a memory to you
Don’t let this memory fade away

Taken from my notebook: “Last Night”

Last night

Gave me a fright

As i stared at the screen

My heart began to lean

I began to toss and turn

My pain and concern

Waiting for change

Feeling insane and deranged

Alas, a flash of hope

Before my heart had stopped to cope

Those three words that filled my ear

The one thing I wanted to hear

I love you

Haiku #2

Tossing and turning

Caught in between the tight grip

Not knowing what’s right

Haiku #1

Lost in my despair

Drowned in my own deathly pain

Slowly the sword strikes

Suicide is a major, preventable public health problem. In 2006, it was the eleventh leading cause of death in the U.S., accounting for 33,300 deaths.1 The overall rate was 10.9 suicide deaths per 100,000 people.1 An estimated 12 to 25 attempted suicides occur per every suicide death.1 Suicidal behavior is complex. Some risk factors vary with age, gender, or ethnic group and may occur in combination or change over time.

What are the risk factors for suicide?

Research shows that risk factors for suicide include:

depression and other mental disorders, or a substance-abuse disorder (often in combination with other mental disorders). More than 90 percent of people who die by suicide have these risk factors.²
prior suicide attempt
family history of mental disorder or substance abuse
family history of suicide
family violence, including physical or sexual abuse
firearms in the home,³ the method used in more than half of suicides
incarceration
exposure to the suicidal behavior of others, such as family members, peers, or media figures.²

However, suicide and suicidal behavior are not normal responses to stress; many people have these risk factors, but are not suicidal. Research also shows that the risk for suicide is associated with changes in brain chemicals called neurotransmitters, including serotonin. Decreased levels of serotonin have been found in people with depression, impulsive disorders, and a history of suicide attempts, and in the brains of suicide victims. ⁴

Are women or men at higher risk?

Suicide was the seventh leading cause of death for males and the sixteenth leading cause of death for females in 2006.¹
Almost four times as many males as females die by suicide.¹
Firearms, suffocation, and poison are by far the most common methods of suicide, overall. However, men and women differ in the method used, as shown below.¹

Suicide by:Males (%)Females (%)Firearms5631Suffocation2319Poisoning1340

Is suicide common among children and young people?

In 2006, suicide was the third leading cause of death for young people ages 15 to 24.¹ Of every 100,000 young people in each age group, the following number died by suicide:¹

Children ages 10 to 14 — 1.3 per 100,000
Adolescents ages 15 to 19 — 8.2 per 100,000
Young adults ages 20 to 24 — 12.5 per 100,000

As in the general population, young people were much more likely to use firearms, suffocation, and poisoning than other methods of suicide, overall. However, while adolescents and young adults were more likely to use firearms than suffocation, children were dramatically more likely to use suffocation.¹

There were also gender differences in suicide among young people, as follows:

Over four times as many males as females ages 15 to 19 died by suicide.¹
More than six times as many males as females ages 20 to 24 died by suicide.¹

I’m done for now.

I don’t have that inspiration right now. So no more writing. Bye.